I can write for hours when it comes to acne, hormones and the constant struggle to maintain clear skin. Working to clear up my skin has been an off and on struggle for the last 3 years and let me tell you nothing has made my confidence drop quite like this. Let’s go back to where it all started for me; the mirena. I had really good skin as a teenager so I kind of thought that maybe I was one of the lucky ones and I dodged the acne stage. When I was around twenty I decided to try the mirena because I hadn’t heard too many negatives about it and let’s be real, the idea of not having to take the pill at the same time every day was all the convincing I needed! So I scheduled an appointment with my doctor and talked it all over and set a time and date to finally do it. I was a little hesitant about it but I went ahead with it anyway. I had it for three years and never had issues until the last year. I had hormonal changes like crazy, acne all around my mouth and jawline, cramping, abdominal pain and the overall discomfort near the end was all I needed to know that it wasn’t the right option for me anymore. Honestly, it’s not like that for everyone because I have heard great success stories from some friends, unfortunately for me it was nothing but a headache.
I scheduled the appointment with my doctor to have it removed and was told most of my problems such as the acne would clear up; which it did for the first two weeks but it only got worse from there. As a young woman in my early twenties it was so hard for me to look in the mirror and see the acne especially when I was trying so many remedies to heal it. I would spend so much time on the internet researching how to get clear skin. I was so afraid to even leave the house without make up and the idea of going anywhere when I had a break out was daunting to me. It completely shattered the self image I had created in my head of myself. Trying to feel confident when I was out in public was a constant battle that I couldn’t ever quite conquer. Some days I would forget about it but all it would take was one glance in a restaurant bathroom to remind myself that I had little bumps under my foundation. I was convinced that was all anyone would notice when they talked to me. Honestly, I couldn’t even focus on conversations with people because the acne would be consuming my every thought.
All I wanted was to be able to leave the house without make up and feel confident so I began trying anything and everything. I’ve tried vitamins that were supposed to help with hormonal acne, revamping my entire diet, apple cider vinegar shots as well as acv toners. And honestly, if I could afford the cost of a naturopath I would be there every day. I’m a big believer that we know our bodies better than anyone and I try so hard to listen to my body and figure out which foods my body doesn’t respond well to. But it’s not always the easiest especially when pasta is my favourite meal to cook at home. (definitely need to branch out and try different recipes, I’m working on it).
I know how important self confidence is especially in a world that revolves around social media and constantly seeing beautiful woman on every page of a magazine. I have to stop myself sometimes from comparisons especially when most people use instagram as their highlight reel and very rarely do they show their daily struggles. I can say that my absence on social media the last two years is related to my confidence and just wondering if I’m good enough to post the picture. I’m definitely my worst enemy when it comes to anything to do with my appearance which is something I have finally figured out recently. I hate to say it took me half of my twenties to finally be where I want to be with myself but I have learned it isn’t okay to only love my body at it’s best. I needed to learn that I need to love myself at every stage. So through the acne struggles, weight fluctuating and just every day set backs I’m going to choose to celebrate myself because my physical appearance doesn’t determine who I am as a person. The biggest lesson I had to learn during all the trials with hormonal acne was that I am enough no matter what and I am beautiful. I still find myself repeating those words in the mirror some mornings.
I want to share some tips and tricks that have helped me over the last couple years and hopefully they will also help someone else who may be going through something similar. It’s so important to know that you are not alone in anything you are dealing with in life and know that there are other people out there that are struggling with the same situations. Trust me, I don’t have all the answers as this is still something I am navigating but it’s definitely a drastic improvement from where I was two years ago. Now I’m focusing on my overall health instead of just wanting to have acne free skin. I know that acne is our bodies way of letting us know that something isn’t right inside our body. What we’re putting into our bodies is also important; not just to avoid acne but for overall health as well. Switching my skincare is another thing that I noticed a massive improvement with. Always checking the labels and ensuring that what we are putting on our skin is non toxic and not filled full of chemicals. I can finally say I have found a skincare line that I am obsessed with and I have noticed such a difference in my skin health as well as appearance.